well hello there

Well hello there little blog of mine. I went off to this amazing conference and met all these great ladies. Then I came back and abandoned it all. So sorry about that. 

Pretty much everything in our house is on toddler time. We go from this-

 To this in a matter of .5 seconds.

Its over everything- eating, sleeping, shoes, teeth brushing, books, which toys we play with or movies we watch, whether we are going to see daddy at work or go to Yia Yia's house. Its insane. I drove home from my parents this weekend and he yelled and cried the WHOLE 4 hours in the car. By the time I got home I just wanted to bang my head against the wall.

I want to love the toddler stage. I want to enjoy his growing independence and personality. I want to wake up each morning excited to spend the day with my awesome little man child. But honestly I am not. We but butt heads constantly, it is one giant temper tantrum from sun up to sun down 6.5 days out of the week. I have tried everything. Reasoning- hahahahahaha. Okay it works like 5% of the time. Distractions- he gets SO mad when he thinks his feelings and thoughts are being pushed aside, he will not be deterred. Playing outside? That works when I have enough energy to chase him around a park and when its sunny- combination of those happen about 2% of the time.

He is just awesome but SO incredibly difficult at the same time. Dear old grown up Ryan- when you read this you must come give me a big hug and apologize for making me wrinkle and grey at an early age because of you.

In pregnancy related news I am 12 weeks finally! I feel like we were cruising along so fast and then now we slowed down. I think I am just crazy because part of me wants it to speed up again but the other part is no where near ready for two children. I am only up 8 lbs now from my starting weight. I lost a bunch being so nausea's all the time then I slowly started gaining it back with Jelly Bean getting bigger. According to my belly button this baby is done cooking, its already poking out I cant imagine what 28 more weeks will look like.

We have another OB appointment this week, cant wait to see them wiggling around in there, we should find out the gender in a few weeks too, I can hardly wait I am so anxious. I have had so many people assume and say to me well you probably want a girl this time. Actually NO. I have NO preference whats so ever! I am not the mom that waits to have one of each so I can be done :) I am going to be so insanely happy with whomever the Lord sends.

The gestational diabetes its getting under control I have to retrain myself and they way I eat but it is so torturous for a pregnant gal to not be able to fill up on carbs! Its hard to feel satisfied after a meal I am always left hungry and needing more food but I have had my "allotment" for the time. Oh why do my children like to plague me from the beginning with heartache and suffering?

But its all worth it I cant wait to hold another little one in my arms.. and breastfeeding! woop woop so excited for that one I miss it SO SO much. Yes I know that is super weird, just roll with it.

Do you have any questions for us? Hubs and Ryan are open to answering some as well, we would love to put together a Q&A post/section of this blog so email away OR ask on fb or twitter. All my contact info can be found above in the tabs

hello glucose reader

I am not happy to see this little guy again. We spent lots of time together while I was pregnant with Ryan. I was so sick all the time with the usual nausea but then there was this other side. Nasty head aches and body aches, shaky, and dizziness. Pixie sticks and jolly ranchers seemed to help but I wasnt sure why. 

When I went in for my 24 week glucose test I was nervous! I had that orange drink cooling in my fridge for 2 weeks and everyone had told me how completely, make you want to gag and throw up out the window, disgusting it was. 

I believed it until I had my first sip of that orange-y perfection in a bottle. WOW it was so good. I held the bottle upside down to let every single ounce drop into my mouth and then I wanted more. I just thought "hmm okay thats different than I was told" 

The nurse's eyes bugged out of her head when she took my blood. Then she said she needed to do it again. Second time and she got a frown on her face- "honey, you are diabetic"

And that was it. No 3 hour test to confirm. My score of 220 was enough to call it right then and there. I was sent home with packets of information and a glucose meter. I was also sent to a dietitian to help monitor my progress.

After a few really rough weeks.. sky high levels and sugar scores low enough to put me in a coma I switched to a high risk OB and got things under control. Thankfully Ryan wasnt the typical 9 or 10 lb diabetic baby they tried to prepare me for. I love his little 6lb 13oz bum. 

So that brings me to this pregnancy! I have been feeling icky and not the normal icky so I had hubs pull out the first aid box and I grabbed my trusty glucose meter from 2 years ago. 

score of 163 :( 

A healthy score for me is anywhere between 90 and 120. 70 when I first get out of bed in the morning. 

Here we go again...  

I am just happy to find out at 9 weeks instead of waiting another few months and wondering why I feel like crappers.