Showing posts with label delivery. Show all posts
Showing posts with label delivery. Show all posts

Sunday, February 19, 2012

a little bit of this a little bit of that.

workin on my selfies! 

Hey friends, lots on my mind lately- nothing big just a few things I dont want to forget. Expect a lot of bullet points because well frankly thats the best way to knock this one out.

Conversation with ryan:
I was getting ready to go out of town for the weekend and my mom was dropping my off at the rental car place. Ryan was grabbing the car seat handle screaming DONT TAKE MY BABY! He was so mad that Weston T. had to come with me.
me: you cant have weston stay with you, I have to nurse him
ryan: NO I nurse baby weston
me: ryan you dont have nursies sorry dude
ryan: yes me have nursies (as he is lifting up his shirt to show me his nipples)
me: but you dont have anything in them
ryan: (grabbing his chest) YES me have daddy milk in me nursies. me nurse baby Weston!

OH MY GOSH I couldnt make this up if I tried.

hmmmm what else... hubs asked me if I was ready to move West into his own room and I actually started crying! I guess that means no. I am not that mom, I am way too attached to my babies that would just hurt too bad to have him so far away. In a few months sure..

Everyone is pregnant right now! Well I have so many mommy friends so everyone is always pregnant but I swear I find out about new ones every day. There is this really crazy thing inside of me that is jealous of them. Yes I just had a baby 7.5 weeks ago and this is completely insane. I really did not enjoy being pregnant at all so I dont know whats going on. We will have more babies for sure but not any time soon. I think its just the excitement of it all that I love. I love having babies. I would relive the end of my labor and Westons birth a hundred times over. There is no high like that anywhere else on earth. I miss that feeling. Congrats to everyone with babies on the way :)

I got all excited to do some redecorating and its kind of on hold. As in REALLY on hold til I figure out exactly what I want to do. I decided that I want to make some pillows because I cant find any that I like and I want to find a good place to do this upholstered wall but not sure where. I feel like a hummingbird with bright shinny objects. I want to do it all and I cant just stay on one idea, I keep changing my mind. I have the hardest time figuring out what looks good with what and how to incorporate everything I like into my space without it looking like pinterest threw up all over my house. Anyone want to help you are more than welcome.

Wow this is totally all over the place huh.. I warned you! Weston looks like my side of the family 100% and Ryan is hubs side all the way. I wonder if they will always look so different or will change as they grow.
weston and aunt hannah 

I lost all my baby weight (go me! dont hate) and then I started gaining weight back. I dont get it this sucks. I have been so bad about what I am eating and havent wanted to start working out and was hoping breastfeeding would do its job like last time. I dont need to be itty bitty but I am still young enough that I havent had to worry about my figure- but I really would like to fit into all the clothes I have. Thats all I ask! We just got gym memberships to anytime fitness. I can see it from my front door so its close enough I have no reason not to hit that up every few days. Ughhhhh

And to wrap up the most random post ever... another conversation with the toddler.

mimi: ryan I have no idea how to work this thing (speaking of my apple tv)
ryan: me have yes idea mimi. (then goes on to show her how to find a show)


well duh, there you have it. Today was Westons blessing day, a very special thing that we do with all our babies in our church. I will have more on that tomorrow with lots of pictures because he had the cutest little white outfit for it.

Wait didnt I say bullet points? Not a single one.. oops!

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Wednesday, February 8, 2012

6 weeks and postpartum


Weston T. is 6 weeks old already! Three days ago I cried while packing up his newborn clothes, I love that he is healthy and thriving but I wish he would just slow down. I am a newborn mama for sure I love the first 6 months they are my favorite and time is slipping away just too quickly for my taste.


at 6 weeks Weston is:

wearing 0-3 month size clothes but they are still a little big
size 1 diapers

awake much more during the day but still takes long naps

insists on being in bed at 11pm sharp every night and gets very irritated if I try to cuddle him after this point

sleeps from 11 to either 4 OR 6 am then goes back to bed til 9

still sleeping in our room in his pack n play on his tummy with his pacie and tiger that plays lullabies 

loves tummy time and baths

obsessed with Ryan

SMILING and cooing a bit. I LOVE these moments

has baby acne pretty bad but it should clear up in a week or so

burps like an old man 

lets me swaddle him sometimes

loves the boobies and nursing but only eats when hes hungry unlike his brother who was a comfort nurser for sure.

enjoys the little travel swing that's for grandmas house over the big nice swing. go figure. 

getting chunky fat rolls. love

loves his soothie pacie

losing his hair in the back and sides, it looks funny.


Postpartum 

As for me and being postpartum- its interesting for sure. Completely different from things with Ryan. I felt really good coming off this pregnancy almost like a high. I was blissfully happy and I was scared that it would all come crashing down like it did before. Things were amazing for about 3 weeks but then it hit me one day in Target of all places when my mom called me and I just started sobbing right there in the little girls section while I was trying to make a B line for the baby stuff behind it.

Since that day I have been taking an antidepressant because I didnt want to pass it off as baby blues and struggle for the next few months. I am really glad I made the choice I did and am not ashamed of needing a little extra help. Having a baby does so much more than make your belly big for 9+ months. It affects your mind, spirit, body, and soul. Every part of you changes when you have a baby and it happens again when you have a second, third and so on. As for now I am feeling really good. I still will randomly feel like crying for no reason and if I am at home or another socially acceptable place like my car at a stop light then I will just let it out. I take it as my body's way of ridding itself of crazy pregnancy hormones I no longer need. Plus having an infant is rough no matter how easy they are or how many times you've done in in the past. Thats something to cry about right there!

Having a baby is also a wonderful thing, its life's greatest thrill if you ask me. I am sure I have new moms or newly pregnant ladies reading and my point is not to scare you or depress you about what life is like after that baby comes. I was unprepared for the emotional side of delivery and beyond the first time and I dont want anyone to be in shock like I was. So breathe a sigh of relief girls, its awesome. Trust me, I will do it again in a few years for sure and probably more after that too.

As for the bod- back down to my pre RYAN weight. 6 months before I got pregnant with Weston I was diagnosed with psuedotumor ceribri which is a really fancy way of saying my body acted like I had a brain tumor when in fact I did NOT. Scary time I never want to repeat- during that whole thing I lost a lot of weight to the point where people thought I was struggling with an eating disorder. It was just all the medication I was taking for it. So to say I want to be back to pre weston weight is not true that was not very attractive in my opinion. I like to have some hips and boobs! However I am really bad at working out which means I have ZERO muscle on this body of mine. Being a gymnast for many years I always had greatly toned muscles and I am dying to have them back. I am going to start some light weight training soon.

Breastfeeding- going amazing! I have been blessed with great boobs, good eaters, and patience to learn the art- for it truly is. I have always had an ample milk supply but the last week its been rough. Hardly any let down and I can tell Weston is really irritated after a min or so when there isnt much left and the same thing happens on the other side. So instead of filling his belly to the brim every 4 hours I am topping him off every 1.5 to 2 hours hoping to get my body to produce more again. I am also being extremely lazy relaxing, drinking lots of water, and trying to eat everything in sight. Hopefully it will get better in a few days. My nursing bras are a 34E (yeah I know..) but I barely fill out my B cups from before! Pray for me and my milk please.

If you made it through all this, mad props to you. I just want to be able to remember everything and I know from experience if I dont write it down I will forget over time. This is such an amazing time in my life I would never want to lose it.

Happy 6 weeks Weston T!

Coming up next...

Parenting the same way and getting two TOTALLY different results. To each their own in this house.


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Sunday, January 1, 2012

Weston Teuscher | a birth story



This is a birth video- there are photos of... birth. You have been warned.


As I sit here, three minutes away from 2012, I can see little feet poking out from the baby swing. This year has been good to us, especially the last week of it. We went out with a bang there is no doubt about that. Weston Teuscher Alberts was born December 28th, 2011 at 5:30 pm. He weighed 6 pounds 10 ounces and measured 19 and a half inches in length. All ten fingers, all ten toes, and a perfectly proportioned, perfectly round head. We are so blessed.


 His took his sweet time with his entrance into this world and the start of it all came as quite a surprise to us. I had been eagerly awaiting each weekly doctor appointment, crossing my fingers that my body would show some signs of labor and give us an idea of when we would expect our little boy. Every week it was the same thing, no cervical dilation or effacement, no contractions, no baby on his way. On December 27th I had my 40 week check up and it was no different, until I was outside the exam room talking with my wonderful nurses and doctor about scheduling a c-section for that Friday and about the risks of trying pitocin without already being in early labor and adding having a VBAC to all of that when it happened. I had my first contraction. The first of many that would bring our little Weston into my arms. The doctor confirmed by rubbing my belly but told me not to count my lucky stars just yet.


After I left the doctor, Hubs, Ryan and I ran some errands. One of our stops was Buffalo Wild Wings-- I was going to spice this baby out. By this point my contractions were coming every 15-20 minutes. We were keeping our families informed with our progress but like the doctor said, we werent banking on anything. I had a massage scheduled for 2pm and even though they were getting stronger and stronger I decided it would be nice to still go. I had 4 contractions during my massage and I fell asleep twice. I was so relaxed and I have a feeling that was the break of the dam. By the time I got home again they were 8 to 10 minutes apart. I tried to take a nap with Ryan knowing that those days were numbered. I skipped work that night as they were getting stronger and stronger. I had a hard time relaxing and keeping my breath even. At 8pm I called my parents to head down they had a 3 hour drive from Seattle, and this was it. Contractions were 5 to 8 minutes apart so I took a nice shower, shaved my legs, and packed the last few items into our hospital bag and waited for them to arrive so we could leave for the hospital. A few hours later we called hubs parents to have them come over and sit with Ryan because I couldnt wait any longer.



I told myself all the way to the hospital I was only dilated to 1cm because I didnt want to be disappointed but the pain I was feeling was real and it wasnt going away. We checked in easily and sure enough-- dilated to a 1 but 80% effaced. I had made some progress but not nearly enough. The hospital wasnt full so they said I could stay and walk the halls for a while to see if things changed. Knowing we were far off from the actual delivery I sent hubs home to get some rest/take care of Ryan because I knew he would be up and missing me. My mom stayed with me and it was perfect, she was such an amazing birth coach having gone through the same thing 5 times. She was so watchful of me and would rub my forehead and my back during each contraction, making sure I said focused and didnt lose my breath. I could not have gone through this experience without her. She is now required to be at all future births. (and take pictures, she took all of these for us) I really thought that I would make it farther into labor before I got an epidural but I am glad I didnt have to. The doctor on call gave me the okay at 4am only dilated to a 3 and the relief was so sweet.


I labored the rest of the night and all day without much rest however. I was very nauseous and threw up tons, I also had a nasty headache and was feeling really gross all over-- almost flu like. At one point they turned off my epidural to see if that would help with the promise of turning it back on in a few minutes. I went 2.5 hours without because the anesthesiologist got stuck in surgery. It was so painful and made me more sick. Hubs came back later that morning after he had gotten Ryan up and settled in with papi for the day. It was great to have him and my mom there supporting me through this. I dilated slowly, about a centimeter an hour or so. I didnt want pitocin unless I had to and since I was moving along, just at my own pace, I was allowed to continue on. I am sure the OB would have liked to send me home but since I was already numb I was there for the long haul and for that I was grateful. A little after noon I felt a tiny trickle- my water had broke a bit but it didnt tear through the whole bag. The OB came in a while later and finished it up. The next thing I knew I was dilated to a 7, and then before I knew it a 9.5. I had read a lot about the benefits of letting the baby labor down as far as they could on their own and since I had a great epidural that was something I wanted to do. It made sense to me, as my baby had already wanted to do things in his own way, in his own time.


I was fully dilated for about an hour and kept feeling him inch closer and closer with each contraction. It wasnt like anything else in the world. It amazing knowing how close he was to actually being here. My nurse told me to give her a heads up when I didnt feel the pressure let up between contractions. At 4:50 pm that happened. After one practice push she told me that as soon as my OB came in we would have a baby! My nurse and the baby nurse started getting things set up, my OB suited up as we cracked jokes and shot the breeze. My contractions never got closer than 5 minutes apart so like with everything else we just had fun and took our time. Earlier in my pregnancy we joked about how I was only going to push for a few minutes-- this being silly because I knew most first time vaginal birth moms can push for an hour or 2. Once he said he was ready to go I lost all control of my emotions and started sobbing. I was terrified. I was scared to push and have this little person come out of me. I was scared to have another newborn as the last one was so difficult and pushed me to my limits, I was scared to be a mother to two children. Whether I was feeling confident or not everyone in that room helped me muster enough courage to push.


Pushing was the greatest thing. It wasnt scary like I thought, it wasnt hard either. I was able to peek down over my shrinking belly and see our little ones head emerge, hair and all! I would have a push then have to wait a few minutes til my next contraction to give it another go. It was slow coming yet again and it was weird to have to him just sitting there so close. The baby nurse kept oohing and ahhing because he never showed any signs of distress he was completely calm the whole time being squished. I only had to push 5 times and then I witnessed one more of my greatest moments ever. My little peanut floated out with ease and into my arms.


He cried for a few seconds and then looked up at me with his big dark eyes and we both melted instantly. He was so peaceful and so happy. I was surprised how clean he was, hardly any baby goo on him at all, he looked so good. I asked them to delay cutting the cord and they did for about 20 minutes. It was great to just have time with him and letting him get used to this big bright beautiful world for a bit. They were able to clean him off a little and check his stats without rushing him away, he didnt need any suction or assistance at all. My boy was here and he was ready for it! I loved our last few minutes of being physically connected. This little guy had grown in my body for the last 9 months and here he was, ready to be on his own. It was bitter sweet. Daddy cut the cord when the time came.


He started rooting around for my breast within the first few minutes and like his brother latched perfectly the first try. I laid and nursed him while my husband and I exchanged loving glances and I was stitched up a bit. I had a second degree tear. Both grandmas were there for his birth as well. Our room was over flowing with love at that moment. I felt they all had a hand in his safe arrival and I was so grateful to share that moment with everyone that was there. Of course nothing with us goes off without a hitch- a few minutes after he was born the power went out! The back up generators switched off and on a few times then things resumed back the love fest that they were. (we also had a fire drill at the same time my nurse call button on my bed broke, it was kind of crazy!)


From the start of my first contraction to holding Weston was 29.5 hours. I was more than ready to be off the epidural and moving around. It had been 13.5 hours since I was hooked up to the IV.  I was so grateful to have a successful VBAC. My labor and delivery went so well I really have no complaints. Sure it wasnt perfect, its still called labor. I was sick and throwing up, hubs couldnt be there the whole time, I ended up with quite a few stitched despite my doctor doing a great job stretching me, but I felt strong and empowered overall! I was able to care for my son and myself with out much pain or discomfort after delivery. We opted for a 24 hour discharge and by Thursday evening, December 30th we were at home with our proud big brother, soaking up this family of four thing.


Weston is the perfect baby. He rarely cries unless being changed or touched by someone with cold hands. He shows no signs of jaundice, he poops and tinkles like a champ, and he is an amazing eater and sleeper. He is in love with Ryan and visa versa. We are so happy and content as we ring in the new year. We have so much to be grateful for. We love our little guys and our life together.

Happy new year.



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Sunday, December 18, 2011

bad at being pregnant

I legitimately feel bad for everyone I am friends with on facebook. I am just not a happy pregnant person I guess and I complain about it daily. I have turned into a complete whiner and I am so crabby! I just lay around in my sweat pants purgatory and eat pop tarts til my heart burn is so bad I want to rip out my own throat. I hate being pregnant but I LOVE having babies. So this will have to do, I have to get through the next 9 days (give or take a few) and then I will be in heaven with my little, pink, squishy, suckling newborn. ahhhh, bliss.

I am living it up with Ryan, we are doing whatever he wants. We cuddle lots, take naps with our faces squished together, share bowls of Nilla's.. He is loving it, so a part of me loves it too.

I have been reading so many birth stories, somehow all natural and super anti dr/hospital/medical intervention and it got me thinking. All of these women are walking around their homes, pushing in all sorts of positions, leading the delivery instead of being told what to do, and the kicker... EATING! Ahh I am a foodie, dont deprive me of a good meal for too long or you will get your head bit off. When I am in the hospital my OB said I was only aloud clear liquids and then after the epidural I could have ice chips. What the heck am I supposed to do if I am in labor in the hospital for 24 hours or something awfully long like that. I am already prepared to make a pit stop on the way and eat a huge meal to tide me over as long as it can. But I will also eat anyway.... its not like they will kick me out or take the food from my mouth, right?

Advice? What did you do when you were starving in labor?!?


Here's to one long week ahead.... oh and a Merry Christmas too ;)



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Sunday, April 3, 2011

From woman to mother.

Watching the picotin drip, drip down in the I.V. Hearing the strong and constant whooshing of him swimming around in his mama's safe, warm, perfectly round belly. This will most likely go down as one of my favorite days. Next to the one where I laid on stark white operating table and heard the sound of my first born son's cries for the first time. There is nothing more powerful, nothing more magical than the site of a mom breathing through every second of a contraction. The pain is strong and overwhelming but the knowledge that this pain is for good, for life, is what gets her through. As mothers we will go through what seems like the pits of hell to bring our children into this world and we will never stop fighting for their freedom and their salvation til we, or they take their last breath.


I feel overwhelmed with gratitude that I was chosen to be here for my best friend in this transition in her life. She is stronger and wiser than she realizes, she was made for this- to be a Mother. Her son is one of the blessed to be raised by her. Her gentle and intuitive spirit will be a sounding board for him in this life. Combined with the love and support of strong Father this sweet boy will do and be great things.



We have been in room number 3004 for nearly 10 hours now, the pain of each contraction and the ones following getting stronger and stronger. Baby boy inching closer to making his grand debut with each passing tick of the clock. With her water broken and still medication free she is trekking along much better than I would be at this point. Aaron is an anchor for her today as he always is. I am watching him hold her hands and her face- brushing her hair back with his steady, strong voice. Counting 1,2, listen to my voice, 3, 4. I know she will look back with different memories of this moment I am watching right now. Her body is writhing in pain and yet she seems untouched. She is so strong, she is going to endure this and most likely do it again someday. I just had the privilege to hold her hand during a few long contractions. It was sweet of her husband to let me share in that moment. Its something incredible- this bond we have as women. When she opens her eyes and mine lock on we can do this. We have both grown babies in our bellies and our hearts. My delivery was much different from hers yet I have this comfort that I've been there before. She is no alone nor am I. We are super women.

The epidural is a gift from Heaven. After hours upon hours of mind numbing pain some sort of sweet relief is available. Her labor stalled at 7 cm so she went back on the pitocin, poor mama. I was honored to hold her left leg and breath through transition with her, her husband and her mother in law. All of us working together as a team with Rachel, the midwife, to bring this sweet life into this world. After 2 hours of hard work this little white slippery body floated out and into his mama's arms. I wish I could explain the love the flowed freely in room 3004 at that moment. Mommy and Daddy looking at each other in pure shock, and then back at their baby they made together. Uriah Aaron was here, turning blush pink, and lungs filling with oxygen. Each little cry brought more and more comfort to the nurses and loved ones in the room.


8lbs 5 oz. and 20 inches long born at 11:15 pm April 2, 2011. He is perfect.


Skin on skin, or kangaroo care- truly a miracle. Baby Uriah was a little unsure about being outside of his mama's womb as to be expected. She created quite a lovely temporary home in there. As soon as he was placed on his mama's chest his stats started to rise again. He was with her once more and could feel her safe loving arms cradling him. He took to breastfeeding like a champ and the new family is doing well. I will have to pry myself away from them soon to go home to my baby whom I miss so much now. Yes, this was one of my most favorite days, ever.

Uriah is lucky, to be born today to this family, in this faith. He is one of the chosen to do the Lords work upon the earth and I can not be more proud of him!
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