I confess that I left my baby boy home alone (and I mean with his daddy) all weekend long! I got lucky enough to have AWESOME girlie friends to go to the beach with :) I also confess that I cried a lot on friday and a lot of those tears were cause I was so sad to be without him. In 14 months the longest I had been apart from his was about 8 hours or so, that that was only a handful of times. Other than that we pretty much spend all our time together which is awesome. I nursed him for the last time ever right before I left and said my good-byes!
Next I confess that as soon as I got in the car I was ELATED! holy crap a whole weekend with just adults, a purse instead of a diaper bag, REAL jewelery that I cant ever normally wear, sleeping in, and being able to just leave the hotel in a seconds notice cause I didnt have to grab snacks, sippy cup, extra diapers/wipes, all the toys of the moment, stroller... the list goes on. All I had to worry about was ME! It was so much fun I needed it so bad and I am lucky to have a hubs that gets that.
Lastly I confess that by Sunday morning I was ready to go home, I missed my baby boy and my big boy, I missed sloppy kisses and tripping over toys, I missed hearing DADA even though I want it to be MAMA. I missed cutting up hot dogs into little, safe pieces. I missed the smell of his nasty doggy blanket that reminds me of morning breath. It was the best when I got home that night and he wrapped his arms around me and patted me on the back and wouldnt let go.
Now its mommy moment monday. Today I was really tired from my party weekend and Ryan was SUPER fussy and freaking out like a lion on the discovery channel chasing and then eating a poor zebra or something. He had a very hard day not nursing and it was a crazy wreck at my house. He wanted like oxygen but like I said above.. we are DONE. And so in true crazy mommy fashion I thought for a moment.....
Wow it would be nice to get away for a little about now.
I cant win but I sure do love the kid