Something you have to forgive yourself for
I can think of so many things. I am trying to balance between something light and something that is just too much for 1 little blog to handle.
I need to forgive myself for not being a better sibling. I let my brother and sisters down big time I feel. They have all struggled with life in their teen years and I feel like a lot of that is my fault. I wasnt always kind, and I wasnt always a good example. I didnt work to form a united bond with the 4 of us.. the kind of bond that can carry you through the hard years and help build lasting relationships with the little cousins that will come down the road. There will be no family reunions, or big family vacations. I sometimes morn the loss of my family. They are all still there but it will be months in between talking or seeing each other. I wish I would have cherished the years I spent sharing a bedroom with middle sister, and watching movies with my brother. I wish I would have paid more attention to baby sister and realized that a strong example and a friend was what she needed most out of me.
I forgive myself.