Tuesday, October 26, 2010

woah theres a kid in my backseat

Today, while driving home from playing with our friends, I watched my sweet little boy drift to sleep in the backseat of the car. I dont know if this ever happens to you but I all the sudden was taken back. Woah baby I am a real mom, I have a real kid. Forever. As you know I have wanted to be a mom since I was little, I counted down the days while I was pregnant. Then I have spent the last 17 months memorizing every inch of his little body, spending hours trying to imprint all his different smiles into my mind so I could remember them forever. I know him, I am his mommy. And he knows me. He can tell when I walk in the front door even if hes in the other room he comes running. He knows when I am sad and gives me his blanket. He lets me cuddle him in the morning while we watch Miss Sunny's Spider Patch.
But for that moment in the car I was taken back at the awesomeness of my little man. MY little man! I gave him life (with some help from the hubs) I nursed him for hours, I walked the halls in the dark of night. And somehow in a flash we ended up here- driving down the road in a big boy car seat, signing to me that he got rain boots with fish on them (they are actually frogs but every water animal is a fish right now) then nodding off to sleep.


9 comments:

Miss Mouse and Me said...

dont those moments make all the hard times worth it!! when someone holds graycie and she cries (total stranger danger mode right now), i feel bad for that person but i love that i can take her back and she stops. i am her mommy and no one can replace me. he is such a cutie, i love that picture!

Shawntae said...

I love that I am someones mommy and they need me! Sometimes I'll wake up and then hear the baby monitor and be like: Woah I have a baby!

It's so crazy!! I love how you write. It's always done so beautifully! :)

Oh and we watch sunny spider patch everyday... basically we are both the coolest moms ever

Jhen.Stark said...

I love this post and this moment for you. I had this moment recently when I was holding my little one making her giggle. I just was completely in awe that she is mine I am hers!

I couldn't believe that a little life I gave birth to is now in front of me. I love it!

Mandy said...

Aren't those just the best moments?? I feel like we're going to continue to have those moments throughout our kids lives. And I'm going to cherish those moments when it hits me, again, that Bennett is MY son and I gave birth to him, and we will always have that bond.
Thanks for sharing!

Chelsea said...

I feel like that often. I have 2 kids! I feel way to young to have a 2.5 year old already! I Love being a mom, it's the best. How is potty training??

Courtney K. said...

Gah! He is so stinkin cute! I could just eat him up! LOL :)

Joanne said...

What a lovely post, those moments are precious and they will keep happening I'm mum to three wonderful kiddies the oldest is ten and I still can't believe that I'm a mum at times.
Ryan looks such a cutie in all his photo's.

Lindy Leigh said...

I sometimes look at my daughter and feel the same way...and she is 33! Yeah. Now I have grand babies...even better!

allie said...

oh man. the combination of this post with "hallelujah" playing = bawl fest city over here. how do they grow up so fast, right under our noses while we're watching them the entire time? how is that possible?

this is so perfect, thank you for wording it so beautifully.

love.

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