hear me roar.
I can cook a meal, fold laundry, fix a boo boo, and schedule appointments on the phone at the same time. I dont shy away from poop, vomit, or blood. I can run uphill pushing 50 lbs. I can survive for days with no sleep. I can also sleep sitting up with a full grown toddler on my chest. I can cure colic in 30 seconds. I make runny noses and colds go away. I can make nightmares end. I can sing lullabies like an angel and make crafts out of whatever's laying around. My kisses have magic powers to make everything better. I am a woman, I am a mom. I am a super hero.
But I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I let things slide that probably shouldnt. I get lazy. Sure I can run on no sleep but I dont like too. I doze on the couch and let Ryan watch tv and eat dry cereal for breakfast. He plays outside in a diaper when its cold because he thinks its funny. One time it was snowing and he ran out in his socks. I didnt mind. When we cook dinner together I let him stir the hot pot on the stove- he is always very careful. I let him get up and have midnight snacks. I let him watch movies all day if he wants. I have let him eat cookies for lunch. I dont always clean off his high chair tray after every meal. He runs around in a wet diaper for hours because he doesnt want to be changed and I dont want to fight him. He picks out his own clothes and they are ridiculous. Sometimes I shout at him louder than I should and let his silly antics bug me. I let him sleep in our bed when he has a hard night and I dont stick to the routine. Other times he will cry for hours in his bed before he falls asleep. He dumps out a whole bag of cheerios or throws a whole box of crayons on the floor and I dont blink twice. I will get on the floor and kick and scream trying to match the magnitude of his tantrum.
But I try dang hard. I love him more than life its self. I will fight the fight and put my best foot forward to be his mom. I will do the best I can and I will never stop loving him and rooting him on. He is my sunshine on a cloudy day.